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It was not on paper – it was in the air. I don’t know how to explain this: it was in the air, and these numbers were LIVING, it was not writing on paper.
    And there were groups of numbers [the Mother tries to remember]. Yes, there were groups of numbers; those of one were blue, dark blue, and the others were golden yellow. And (how to put it?), It was not masculine-feminine, but these were two principles, the two principles - the principle - not of creation but of conception (origination) [gesture of a descent from above] and the principle of realisation.
    I am completely conscious when I do this. I am asleep as it were, but I am not sleeping; and I am not ‘dreaming’: I DO, I ACT, and I am completely conscious, the same type of consciousness as in the waking state – not that of dreaming. I do that, and I was explaining to you how all these numbers were organised and that they determine future events.
    When I wake up, or rather when I get up (I can’t say ‘wake up’), when I get up and begin my activities, it goes – it just ‘goes’, not that it stops: that stays in the world. And it is only because you are present now that the contact with that memory is made.
This lasted for several hours. It was not the ‘conception’ of a work: it was THE WORK itself. It was as if …as when there are levers and the things that one moves, and that sets in motion [the Mother outlines a large control panel] …It was something like that but it was not at all that! It was the organization of groups of numbers which determined the events and the ORDER of events (above all the order of events) and the place on earth. And probably while I was doing this, there was something that wanted me to tell you and which left this impression that there was something to tell you, but then it was all gone. When I come back to this life here, everything goes. It is only because now I searched that I made the connection [gesture of contact with that memory]. I searched and it has come back.
    But I realise, almost surprisingly, that this must have lasted at least two or more hours – two, two and a half hours. I don’t sleep at all, but I am active, thoroughly active in the… [the Mother tries to place the zone]…in what is being prepared to manifest on Earth. That is I don’t know if we must call it the ‘subtle physical’ or … It is the creative zone of the physical. And since I cannot run about from one place to another, what I do is connected to numbers like this – living numbers. Living numbers: I organize them, I put them in groups, and I remember what I did the night before and then I say: ‘No, yesterday it was like that, but now it is necessary that it be like this’, -- with the knowledge that tomorrow another change will be necessary. And it is this that determines the events. But the consciousness (the waking consciousness, or the ordinary consciousness) MUST NOT know what is decided there. I must only know the part that is necessary for the execution, and this is why there is a severance – it stays, it continues to live on like that [gesture behind the head] but it doesn’t come through. It is only because I had taken the decision to speak to you about it (in the ‘dream’) that I could make a connection with the memory of it, but …though I SEE – now I see those numbers, it is for this reason that I can describe them – it has no longer any meaning for me. And I don’t know if they are numbers or letters... it was numbers, I know it was numbers; there were golden numbers and blue numbers (but these are not our material colour). I was arranging them, I put a group there like this, another one this way [gesture like moving a puzzle], then I would choose. It is curious. And I must have been very large because the numbers were large. I would take them and place them on this big surface. And as I placed them a communication was made and that organised the events immediately to transpire.
    Perhaps I will remember …
    Last night – I knew I did it every night – but last night … there was (in the body), in the waking state yesterday, a sort of aspiration to know what the functioning, the action of the Superman Consciousness would be. I said: ‘It is not enough to have that Consciousness around one (like a rampart).

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